Tuesday, March 13, 2012

My Broken Heart


My Broken Heart

Some of you may know that our dog bit the baby. It was horrible and brutal , there was blood everywhere. I am heartbroken and confused. I don’t know what to do.

My beautiful girl received over 40 stitches in her lip. Our Dog was quarantined. My family was heartbroken. It was an accident, the dog had a bone that smelled like another dog, he became possessive. We put him in his kennel, Sammy let him out, the baby accidentally got put down just a little too close by our oldest son. The dog felt threatened and snapped. Tyler saved the day and got the baby because he was right there. So it probably could have been worse. Regardless, it’s bad enough.

I feel like I have sacrificed one child for another. My sweet baby girl that lights up my days was hurt. I can’t even put my thoughts together completely. I just hurt so much. I still haven’t cried yet. I think I am still in survival mode and keeping busy figuring out what exactly to do about the dog. If this had been about anything other than food, I would feel differently. This dog has never shown any sort of aggression before. It’s random. If I lost it and beat the crap out of my husband I would hope he would forgive me and move on. I know it’s not the same. I know…

I know a lot of you won’t agree on this. I understand where your coming from and I hear you. It isn’t that simple. I love this dog, the kids love this dog. Sammy has thrived in more ways than I can express since we brought him home. He is family.

I can’t eat. I sleep in fits and starts, small spaces in between flashbacks and dreams. Sounds and smells of that night are still preventing me from eating. My stomach is in knots.  I can’t put her down. I feel like I am being chased by a lion. I am heartbroken… or maybe just broken.


joining up with Shell once again.
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Diane · 681 weeks ago

My family recently lost our dog ~ he lived a long and happy life so it was just his time. I've had many pets in my life time ~ a 1/2 dozen dogs, a dozen cats and I even raised 8 ducks from hatching. None of them ever go to me like Buddy. I was practically raised at my grandfather's country house with a farm and cows nearby. To me animals were, well animal, you didn't get attached or treat them like family. This one was different though, maybe because he was a constant in my boys' life and they loved him. Still with all that said, I still down inside believe that animals are animals and realistically if your house were engulfed in flames and you could go left and save the dog or go right and save your baby..... would you even hesitate to way the options? No. Babies first, pets second. It's hard but it's real.
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Jess · 681 weeks ago

Trust your gut, dear. Of course you're torn to pieces about your baby girl being hurt. If my child fell off the swingset, I'd feel heartbroken and guilty about it. That's just part of you as a mom. When our children hurt, we hurt. I can almost sense that you're feeling somewhat guilty for, well feeling guilty. You aren't a bad mom because this happened. Our children will get hurt and we can't be there every second to stop something from happening. I do agree with what Diane said above - animals are animals and they are always going to have instincts. That we can't control. Trust your gut. If your dog has never shown any signs of aggression prior to this, would you feel comfortable allowing him to be back in your house again? If you're going to live in constant fear, it may not be worth it. But if you can let go of that fear - maybe still be a bit cautious - but not dread what MIGHT happen again, then I say allow the family pet back into your lives.
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janice Vinci · 681 weeks ago

I say, no more rawhide bones. Give them milkbones... they eat them and they're Done. No having to protect it. I also say, get the dog some training, First. and talk to a vet.
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Making It Work Mom · 680 weeks ago

Oh gosh I can't even imagine something so horrible to have to decide on. I hope you are able to make the decision that fits your family the best without too much heartbreak.
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Lisa · 680 weeks ago

If it was the first time this happened, I would give the dog another chance. I would agree to not give the rawhides. I knew someone who's dog bit her child's hand, but the dog had shown aggression MANY times before. It doesn't sound like this is the case here.

I would see how your daughter reacts -- if she seems scared of him now, I'd let him go. If not, hopefully it's just a one time thing.

Stopping by from PYHO.
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gin · 680 weeks ago

I am so sorry for what you are going through! I wish I could give you tons of advice and fix it, but I honestly don't know what I would do either if I were in your shoes. Take care of your baby girl, yourself and keep sleeping in fits...the answer will come.
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Shell · 680 weeks ago

Oh, how hard that would be! I won't sit here and pretend I have the answer for what to do, b/c only you know your family and your dog.
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Mayor Gia · 680 weeks ago

Ughh what a tough spot for you! The other commenters have good advice- but unfortunately, you should probably be prepared to take some heat no matter what you decide.

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