silence and smiles with eggs and strawberries

we went to the store with Sammy today. he really did very well. super helpful and everything. not even a hint of a meltdown. I makes me happy to see it. those moments do come when I can see through everything into the light behind his eyes. And because I am me it also makes me sad. it makes the silences of his soul that much louder, that much more noticeable, that much more unbearable. We have changed his supplements that he takes. high dose b6 and magnesium. huge difference for him. behavior wise he will always be a nut case, but he is almost conversant. which for Sam is the equivalent of swimming the English channel with no arms. so it does make me so happy