Today was better

Today everything with Sammy was better. No major freak outs. No violence. Nothing. I need to make some time to try and reconnect with him over the next week or so. I don't know how to reach him sometimes.

 

Sam is so explosive. One minute he loves you and everything is fine and the next he is swinging a shovel to kill his brother. Simply because he got angry. Simply because he didn't have a clear expectation on how to respond. It feels like I have failed.

But, today was a new and better day. Today no one got hurt. So for now that has to be good enough.

Teenagers

Aj and Sam were home today because our school district had an in service day. Sam has not been easy to manage lately and it is really hard to handle him myself. I was frustrated and stressed out and so very tired. 

AJ cleaned the entire kitchen for me, spic and span  and completely spotless! He volunteered to watch the boys for me and Grace while I napped, and helped me put away laundry.

These days people are often complaining about their teenagers and how miserable they are. I am pretty blessed to have great teens.